Gold About Money
It may not be what you’d think.
I have claimed to be ‘The Richest Poor Person I Ever Knew’ for many of my 52 years. It was been a claim I was proud to make.
Until recently. Recently I discovered that I hate this identity. More accurately, I discovered that I feel intense emotional anger from having been, for so much of my life, limited, from the inside, by my legendary ability to go without money.
Limited by my legendary ability to go without money.
It hardly sounds like a problem, does it.
For much of my life my money experiments included trading, barter, gift exchange, gifts with no exchange, accepting scholarships, bursaries, handouts, accolades, patronage, treasure hunting and finding finding, upcycling, cathartic grief, and impressive minimalism.
Secretly, there was responsible victimhood, resentment, revenge, superiority, comparison, and a lot of pretending.
My more conscious and recent experiments have stemmed from my studying and using Possibility Management to empower:
Emotional Healing Processes, Initiation processes, Radical Honesty, teaming up, conscious anger work, (examples below), and conscious fear work, grief work and the discovery of vast new things about joy, celebration and going first.
It began with conscious anger
I think it took me so long to make the discovery that I hated my former identity at least partly because I was using, unconsciously, a thought map about anger that begins with: “anger is not okay .”
Shift began with a new map about anger, that begins with “anger is anger: a source of energy and information.”
I committed to growing up my anger. I did this using an experiment called 333 Initiation, where I raged, as full-out as possible, for 3 minutes a day, three times a week, for 3 months. In a way, I caught up on the temper tantrums I stopped having when I was about 2 years old. As my anger matured, more mature anger became possible.
I discovered vastly more than I had ever expected, so much that, two years later, I am still choosing do 3 minutes of anger several times a week, at least.
In a word, getting my anger back has increased and deepened my clarity and ability to be in touch with reality, rather than being in a made-up and disjointed storyworld about it.
The shift from the identity of “The Richest Poor Person I Ever Knew” into something else, into the experience of being someone discovering her non-material value and sharing it with integrity, had begun.
It has been painful and scary. It has been an adventure and I do not want to stop. I also do not want to keep my discoveries to myself. I want to experiment with more people, and with new people.
So I created Money Club.
Money Club is a gameworld where distinctions, tools, thought maps and processes from Possibility Management are used, (and more invented), that upgrade Modern Culture SHIT — Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware — about money. As this happens, Next Culture grows, a culture where money, profit, winning (while others lose) and numbness are not central.
Next Culture experimenters such as those who populate Money Club spaces are discovering how Next Culture goes by going, by finding out what works and what doesn’t and then creating next experiments.
Sharing from our discoveries is part of the high level fun that distinguishes Next Culture, radically responsible spaces, from Modern Culture, low drama spaces. In low drama, villains, victims, and rescuing — rather than holding space for healing and discovery — are happening.
After a year of Money Club, experimenting with a variety of space-holders-in-training teams, I am about to begin the next Money Club experiment: a 4 week series of online calls where the same people meet to find our x’s on the map of shift, and bring conscious awareness to our experiments. In the calls and a telegram group during the weeks between, we share the legends, and give each other coaching and possibilities to empower transformation.
I invite you to be part of Money Club.
It can be as a participant in the upcoming 1.5 hour online Intro to Money Club, or
as a teammate in the upcoming 4 week online series:
Email me to get in on these or future spaces: nicolebradford110@gmail.com
Wishing you extraordinary adventure,
Love,
Nicole
